Monday, May 28, 2012

The Best EVER!

I can't remember many, many times I have said after leaving a restaurant, "Well, we won't be going back there, the food was awful!"  But on the flip side, the "best evers" are usually few and far between - making them even more special.  Here are a few I count as "the best ever."

1.  The very, very best pizza I ever ate in my life (no snickering, cause I do eat lots of pizza), was in a tiny little restaurant on Bourbon Street in New Orleans.  My daughter wanted pizza, so we let her choose.  This restaurant wasn't much bigger than a small McDonalds.  The pizza ...... I can't even describe it.  It made such an impression, every other pizza as paled in comparison.  Probably isn't even there anymore!

2.  French fries - hmmm, I can take them or leave them.  Some are absolutely hideous, some are so so, and some you can tell were dumped right out of the bag, frozen.  And of all places - again - the best we ever ate was on the Riverwalk in New Orleans.  The Riverwalk was built when New Orleans hosted the World's Fair.  It is a really, really long, narrow mall of eating spots, that all overlook the river.  Those french fries came in a sort of drink type cup, stacked vertically.  They were absolutely amazing.  We went back every day while we were there to get more!

3.  Before I delve into the next best, let me just say that I have eaten thousands of Mexican meals.  With little exception for the bad restaurants, the ordinary ones are pretty much the same.  We ate at a Mexican Restaurant in Fort Worth, Texas.  It was crammed - literally space to edge sideways between tables. The tables were covered in white tablecloths. We ordered and it was heaven on a table.  They used blue cornmeal and made their own tortillas - both corn and flour.  It was the best I had eaten to that point, and nothing else has matched it even now.  I'd love to go back and feast again!

4.  To move away from food (cause my stomach is growling), the best,  most spectacular sights come next.  The first one is the very first time we saw the Grand Teton Mountains going into Yellowstone National Park.  We pulled over to the side of the road, and we all stood there with our mouths open.  Absolutely majestic spires disappearing into the clouds, covered with thick forests, and patches of snow here and there.  I think I nearly stopped breathing.

5.  Best place number 2 - New York City.  We drove in on the bus from New Jersey where we were camped.  As we got close enough to see the Twin Towers, the Empire State Building and other skyline buildings, my daughter and I about fell out of the bus looking.  This trip has so many highlights - it is hard to pick a favorite.  We climbed to the top of the Statue of Liberty and looked out the windows in her crown - all of New York and the harbor was laid out below us.  We got to ride the Police Elevator to the top of the Twin Towers - made the trip up in about a minute.  Fabulous.  Central Park - beautiful, and we didn't even begin to see 1/100 of it. China Town with open air fish markets - eew!  Seeing all the ships in the harbor.  Watching lots of street musicians and dancers. Street food (actually the best we had al the time we were there). Riding our first subway to the Bronx Zoo - that was an experience I wouldn't want to repeat!  I would live in NYC in a heartbeat if I had the finances!

6.  The best ever of any of the above was being able to be in the delivery room when my daughter gave birth to my three granddaughters.  Nothing, absolutely nothing, can compare.  I also got to see my other two granddaughters within hours of their birth.  Precious, wonderful memories.

I know we all have "best evers" in our life.  These are just a few of mine.  I hope to have many more "best evers" sometime during the rest of my life.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I miss this!

I guess in some ways, I am truly a writer.  Not necessarily a brilliant one, or one who has written books that land on the best sellers list.  But in the sense that true writers can no more shut off the urge to write that comes pouring into their heads, than dear old Oklahoma can shut off the wind!  :)

I truly wanted to nap before my evening walk - really, I did!  Last day of school, kids gone, most of my room cleaned, and one more work day before summer begins.  But the nap wasn't within my grasp because the urge to write came flooding over me, and I thought I'd better get up and write before I drowned!

I've heard so many people say that certain events or items or people remind them of something wonderful that they miss.  Most of those events can't be recreated, but are still tucked into our hearts and souls.

Things I miss is where I am going with this post.   I'm not sure why, but lately, I've been missing things from my childhood or early married life.   Here they are in no particular order!

1.  I sure miss my daddy singing in his deep bass voice around the house.  When we woke up in the morning, there would be the sounds of the flapping of the blinds as he pulled them up, the slam, slam of the cabinet doors (who knew what he was looking for),  and above all else, him singing. 

2.  I miss the smell of the honey locust flowers in the spring.  They hung in huge white bunches which we kids would pick by climbing up on top of the chicken house so we could reach the blossoms.  The smell still stays with me to this day.

3.  I miss walking into my parent's house after I got married, and smelling mom's cooking. Fresh bread baking in the oven ---  Oh, I miss her homemade bread.

4.  I miss Sunday dinner with my daughter, son in law and granddaughters.  When they lived close, we ate with them almost every Sunday, gathered around the table, laughing, talking and cutting up.  When our son lived in the same town for awhile, he joined us also.  I miss that so very much.

5.  I miss the freedom of living in a small town and walking anywhere in town to do business in five minutes.  I loved being able to ride my bicycle anywhere in town without being afraid of being run over.  My favorite summer pasttime was to ride my bicycle miles into the country, finding a hill, getting up speed, and coasting down the hill with the wind in my face.

6.  I miss laying on the couch with a baby on my tummy, smelling their sweet baby smell.  Daughter, son, and granddaughters.  You never get enough!

7.  I miss the excitement of helping with harvest.  I know, I know - weird thing to miss!  When we were first married, my husband and his dad still farmed small parcels of land and cut the wheat from them.  That first cut to see if the wheat tested low enough in moisture.  The baby bunnies hubby would find and bring home for the kids.  Me driving to the elevator with a load of wheat on the truck (small truck with sideboards).  Even just riding around and around with my husband as he cut. 

There are so many more things I miss, but that will have to wait for installment #2.   I don't wish to turn back the clock to earlier years, I just love remembering the things I miss!


"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away..."

Author: Unknown

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Surrounded by love

I was literally lying in bed, getting some extra sleep just a few minutes ago, and what has been in my heart for weeks propelled me up out of bed to write.

A couple of weeks ago, my granddaughter, DJ, and her mom were at DJ's doctor appointment with Dr. Miloh to discuss DJ's upcoming liver transplant.  After the medical checks etc., Dr. Miloh settled back in his chair and asked if they had any potential living donors for the liver transplant.

My daughter, April, said yes.  April told him that she intended to be the donor because she was the right blood type, and since it was her daughter, there was a very high chance they would be a match.  Dr. Miloh nodded, and then April said, "But that isn't all the list."  April began listing the friends or relatives who had come forward to donate, including her brother,  that were the right blood type and age.  Dr. Miloh's mouth began to drop open.  April then said, "But that is just the list of the people with the right blood type and right age."  Then she began listing the people who came forward who were not the right blood type or had a medical condition which prevented them from donating.  Dr. Miloh's mouth dropped open even more.  April finished by saying, "And here is the list of people who love DJ but who are too old and in too fragile of health to donate - although each of them have repeatedly asked if there was some way around the age limit.  Those include my dad, my mom, my aunt, and my uncle.  My brother is already on the first list with the right blood type, age and health." 

Dr. Miloh was speechless for a moment.  He turned to DJ and said, "DJ, you are a very, very lucky young lady to be loved by so many people who would give so much to you."  D.J. smiled and said, "I know."

Here is the kicker!   After a moment, Dr. Miloh began to tell them how he has had to watch children die because there was no donor for a transplant for them.  He said that some of them actually had relatives who could have donated but who refused.  Then he said, "After this transplant is over, I want you to do a favor for me. "  DJ and April nodded.  He said, "Would you talk the people on your list and ask them to seriously consider donating  to some other child or baby that needs a transplant so they can live too."  Of course, both DJ and April answered that they would.  So I am including myself in that favor and including his request in my blog.

 We will be very lucky and blessed because DJ has so many people to donate to her so she can get well, and graduate, go to college, fall in love and get married.  Some children will not be as lucky.   Powerful, heartbreaking, and though provoking request from Dr. Miloh. 

Thank you for reading my blog.

 "You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give."
Kahlil Gibran








Saturday, April 28, 2012

God doesn't need another angel just yet!

Dear God,

I know you are quite busy right now.  The world is in a mess, and the US is heading there fast.  Nobody seems to like each other anymore, and the politicians just fight and fight some more. There are more and bigger weather disasters with all the heartache that goes with it. People are hurt, families are breaking apart, and war seems to be the norm.

So I know it might be kind of hard to work us into your schedule, but we would so appreciate it. You see, you might be getting another angel soon from my family.  I know you can always use more angels in heaven.  BUT let me just mention that my school has contributed 5 angels to heaven in the past 4 months.  That's quite a lot of angels, and I don't think that one more angel is needed in heaven just now.  And although I know that my granddaughter, DJ, would love hugging her great grandma and grandpa in heaven, I really need to hug her here on earth for many more years. 

You see God, our DJ is really, really sick, but I expect you know that already. Her liver is failing, and that has affected her kidneys and other parts of her body.  Her condition gets worse every day.  She has a hard time thinking anymore, and has some really tough school and college prep tests coming up.  She hurts 24/7and that is so hard for anybody, much less a 16 year old. 

Here's the problem, God.  The insurance company that should pay for DJ to get a liver transplant has said they won't pay for it to happen in Phoenix where she lives.  They want to send our DJ to a hospital miles away, at the end of a dangerous highway with lots of weather storms along the way.  I'm begging for some help from you.  DJ needs to be in Phoenix with her family, friends and church family.  She needs all of us to love her, encourage her and be there everyday.  If she gets sent clear to the bottom part of Arizona, that can't happen.  She won't even know any of the doctors or nurses at the hospital.   It breaks my heart to think of her way down there with her daddy, and strangers. 

Another part of the problem, God, makes me hurt double.  My precious daughter, that you gave to her dad and I on January 6, 1975,  is going to give part of her liver to her daughter, DJ.  That means DJ won't even be able to be held and loved by her mom for many weeks while her mom heals from that surgery.

If our precious DJ doesn't get this transplant fast, you might have another angel in heaven real soon. I know you would welcome her with loving arms, but we need her here more.  God, I am asking that you be content with the number of angels you have right now, and leave DJ here on earth for many, many more years.

With hope and tears,

Her Mimi, Marty






Sunday, April 8, 2012

A star dimmed but another one lit

I haven't even had time to breathe lately, much less blog.  But felt the need to do so today because of sad news I got this morning.

My cousin, Tom, passed away after a long, long battle with health.  The irony of this is that I never saw him more than one or two times in my life.  BUT thanks to FB, we got reacquainted about two years ago.  He read all of my blogs and made some great comments on various posts. We had some incredible conversations via Email.

There is so much about my cousin that I did not know, nor will I ever know.  What I know is from corresponding with him via FB or E-mail. - By getting to know him, also got acquainted with other cousins that I hadn't known very well and that has given me a whole other place of joy.  During the past two or three years, getting to know Tom, I knew he was one of the good guys.  I got to hear him play in his band via video on the internet - and I was touched by the joy on his face as he played his guitar. 

Years ago, Tom was diagnosed with cancer.  During the past 12 years, he has had a tracheotomy to breathe, and a stomach port to get his nourishment.  I understand he also couldn't speak much above a raspy voice.  You'd think that with all the health problems he had, in and out of the hospital, that he would become a bitter, disillusioned man.  Not so.  From the FB posts, and Emails I got, he was rising above the mess daily.  He took and posted some incredible photos around the area.  His posts on FB were thoughtful and rarely fluff.  You could tell that he felt deeply about his life and the life around him, his wife and his kids.  It was absolutely apparent that he loved all of them with his heart and soul.

His wife is a nurse, and I believe that having a nurse right there helped him stay on this earth after his cancer for as long as he did.  Jeanne, thanks for your part in giving Tom more time on this earth.  

So to Tom, my cousin, rest in peace.  I wish I could have met you in person as an adult because I believe we would have had some wonderful conversations.  To Jeanne, his wife, my heart hurts for you as you begin a totally different journey.  Tom is now at peace, he has no pain, and I am willing to bet, that he is talking up a storm in heaven with all of our relatives that have already gone before.

One star might have dimmed, but another star is shining very bright in heaven.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Dear Mr. Limbaugh,

Dar Mr. Limbaugh,

I have always avoided your radio show because I have always thought you were pretty much a neaderthal that crawled out of the nearest cave with his club, ready to bash a mammoth on his head and tear the meat to ribbons with your fanged teeth.  Now I am totally convinced that thinking is a slam to neaderthals, because you are way, way worse.

So let's see - you said because a woman wanted insurance to pay for contraceptives, that made her a slut, because obviously, if she needs contraception, she sleeps around? And if she sleeps around, she is a slut?  And so she should record a sex tape and sell it in order to pay for her contraceptives?  I am rarely, ever without something to say to such idiocy, but I find myself temporarily speechless.

Hmmm, what if she is married, and they can't afford a baby right now?  She chooses to use contraceptives so they won't have another baby which might cause them to go on welfare which would then be the taxpayers burdern.  Wow - what great thinking!  By all means, lets not let insurance pay for contraception.  Let's have more unwanted babies who get abused and hurt every day.  Let's not give women contraception so those poor children can be born into a life of pain and emotional hell. 

 So let's see again - if a man wants to keep his lover/wife/significant other/girlfriend/one night stand/ mistress (choose one) from getting pregnant, and he wants contraception - that is perfectly all right?  Because, as we all know, women get pregnant all by themselves, no men needed?  And if the tables were turned, and it was a man wanting insurance to pay for his contraception, there'd be so many politicians on his bandwagon, it would number in the hundreds. 

Mr. Limbaugh, you are an insult to the human race.  You are an insult to decent men everywhere, who want their wives/lovers to be protected, who do the right thing by using contraception.  AND you degrade women.  You are also a drug addict who has no right being allowed to talk on public radio and defame a woman who cannot defend herself.

AND I say bravo to those 30 advertisers who pulled their ads.  That is what decency is about, Mr. Limbaugh, not running off at the mouth without engaging the brain (what little you have left that hasn't been ruined by drugs). 

I sincerely hope that you get blasted so hard from women across the nation, that they pull your radio show.  

Hate and force cannot be in just a part of the world without having an effect on the rest of it. 

Elenor Roosevelt.

Well-behaved women seldom make history.

Laurel Thatcher Ulrich


So come on women - let's roar and let Mr. Limbaugh know what we think and let's make history!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Dark Shadows

Sometimes I want to be like an ostrich, stick my head in the sand and ignore the world around me.

Not sure why, but it seems right now there are so many dark shadows around me, that I want to just scream.  A very close friend is struggling with issues that could make or break her marriage.  Granddaughter and family struggling with her disease and the monetary fallout from that.  Cousins dealing on a daily basis with heartache and medical issues.  Other friends dealing with family members murdered, or sick, or dying or whatever.  Students being so ugly to each other, and discipline issues multiplying by the tens!  Dependence and medical issues in my own home that sometimes make me feel like I am suffocating. 

You can't pick up the paper without feeling like someone has slammed you in the head after you read all of the negative, horrible things going on in our world.

Your turn on the TV news, and it is a repeat of the paper.  How many people got shot or murdered!  How many people have been hurt in some way.  How many countries are in complete and total chaos and anarchy.  How many countries with children dying by the hundreds and thousands each day from hunger or war.  How many soldiers shot in Afghanistan.  How many riots and protests against our soldiers in Afghanistan.  Apologies to countries that we have no buisness apologizing to!  It just seems to go on and on.

After awhile, it becomes a part of your soul.  The dark shadows that play out in life every day - either personal or worldwide just get into you, and begin to throw shadows on every aspect of your life.  You begin to wonder if the US will ever get back to the robust, great nation it once was.  You wonder if soldiers will come home maimed, hurt and emotionally traumatized for the rest of their life.  You even wonder if there are any marriages that will make it.   You start feeling depressed and angry, and then helpless because there really isn't anything you can do to fix it all.

I have no answers - only more questions.  I do know that I am going to cancel my newspaper, and quit watching the news except for the weather.  It seems like I am avoiding real life, but I am protecting my soul.  Whether I know what is going on in the world or not, it is still going to happen with or without me.  So I protect myself, help my friends and family and cousins as best I can by being there so they can vent, or we can talk or whatever - and maybe, just maybe, some of the dark shadows won't be quite so dark anymore.

"The best way to escape from a problem is to solve it."

"It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light." -Taylor Benson

Peace to everyone during these dark shadow times.





Saturday, February 11, 2012

TV Stars - woot woot!

At this moment, I am so overwhelmed with joy, I am bursting.  FINALLY, action in Arizona for our very sick  16 year old granddaughter.  Channel 3 in Phoenix interviewed our daughter and our granddaughter about her sickness.  It just aired.  Their financial situation is teetering on the top of a cliff, about to fall over.  This news story on TV will help! 

Background:  Our precious DJ, 16, has been diagnosed with autoimmune hepatitis.  She has been in and out of the hospital since August - for weeks and weeks.  She has had to make major changes in her life, including dropping some of her AP classes in High School because it was too much to keep up with from the amount of days she was too sick to go to school, or in the hospital.  She is never without pain - it is her shadow, 24/7.  Some days it is bearable, some days it is not.  Her medicine to keep her living and not going into acute liver failure is beyond expensive.  One medicine is $400 a month - ONE medicine.  That doesn't count all the others she is on.  At this point, I bet their medical bills are close to half a million dollars or more.

DJ will have to have a liver transplant eventually, but the doctors and family are hoping that DJ can be stabilized so she can get through High School with some quality of life - before that has to happen.   She just got home Tuesday from another round in the hospital.  The medical costs are staggering.  Both her mom and dad have been off work so much, neither have any leave left.  They both have lost a lot of money in their paychecks because they have been off with DJ so much.  That alone has cut deeply into their finances.  There are no savings, because 4 years ago, her dad, Danny, had cancer, and the medical bills from that round completely wiped them out! 

But the reason for writing this blog post is that I am in shock as to how this all came about.  This would not have happened today, but for a determined 16 year old who has been through hell and back.  Today, their family in AZ was having a garage sale to raise money for expenses for our granddaughter, DJ.  When DJ (aka Danielle)  woke up this morning, she decided to call Channel 3 - a major TV station in Phoenix - and ask them if they could say something about the garage sale on TV - explained a little about what it was for.  The man politely said that it sounded interesting and that they would think about it.  I am not sure even DJ knows just why she called them, but she is gaining a voice and is becoming very active about her disease, hoping that what she is going through, will eventually help someone else.

In the middle of the morning, with the garage sale going on full swing, 3 TV vans pulled up to their house, with cameras, etc.  Of course, DJ and mom about fell out of their chairs.  The reporter introduced himself, and asked if he could interview them for the 5 o'clock news.  What cracked me up was that DJ's comment when she first saw the news vans was, "Oh crap, I look awful."  Typical teenager!  :)

April (our daughter) said the reporter was amazing, asked wonderful questions, and at one point, when April started crying, so did he.  The segment just aired on TV - with a comment at the end that anyone could donate to the fund by contacting any Bank of America.

Our family, including theirs, is pretty private about what is going on in our lives, and would rather die than ask for help.  For DJ to call the station and ask them to air the location of the garage sale shocked all of us - our family just doesn't do that.

Rather than ask for money, they just posted flyers about the sale, and were selling everything they could to raise money.  Somehow, I believe that a higher power led DJ to call the TV station today, and then sent the reporters to their home.

Their circle of family, friends, collegues, teachers and church friends have kept them in groceries, gift cards, and prayers.  But even more than the gifts, is the wonderful, caring comments they continue to receive that gives them strength to face another day.  It is the love that surrounds them that gives them hope.  It is April's principal and co teachers that do anything and everything to help them, including doing her lesson plans if needed so April can be at the hospital with DJ.  It is the people at Danny's work that give, and gave so very very much when he had cancer and couldn't work for a year.  They are amazing, amazing, amazing!

It is humbling that when the family was in crisis mode for food or money, it seemed to arrive.  Now with the money they get from this garage sale,  they can pay for dental work that needs finishing for DJ - that the dental office was nasty about. They asked for $1,000 up front before even treating her, and Danny said he would be lucky to be able to give them $10.  Danny said that for a moment, it looked like they were not going to fix DJ's  broken tooth and root canal so she wouldn't be in pain, but finally relented.  That was a really, really good thing, because if they had refused service, I think Danny would have gone postal.  Any other money they get, will allow them to pay on regular living epenses as well as the other medical bills that pile up daily. 

So again, heart is filled with joy, tears are in my eyes, and the financial crisis that was eating me from inside out is temporarily helped so I can breathe again, and so can they. 

They that hope in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar as with eagle's wings; they will run and not grow weary; walk and not grow faint.    Isaiah 40:31


Peace and love to all.


Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Big Girl Panties

Marty 1:  OMG - I looked in the mirror.
Marty 2:  Well, duh, most of us do that at least once a day to be sure that their hair doesn't look like something a brush hog spit out alongside the road.  And your point is????
Marty 1:  (whining, incredulous voice) There was an OLD woman staring back at me.
Marty 2:  BWAHAHAHA - what have I been freaking telling you?  You are OLD!  Geeze - you are 60.  That's like when dinosaurs roamed the earth.
Marty1:  (small voice) But - I don't wanna be old.
Marty 2:  (mean, sargeant voice) Tough cookie lady.  Get those granny panties out and wear 'em.
Marty 1:  NO.  Don't want to.  I want my big girl panties. 
Marty 2:  Hmmm - maybe we should review ZUMBA on Tuesday night.
Marty 1:  (defiantly) So what about Zumba?  I kept right up with those young chickies.
Marty 2:  Um yeah, I could see that.  Good grief - wiggle, wiggle, rah rah rah, cheese, butt gyrating until I thought yours would get stuck and fly off!  You looked like a demented cat on catnip.  You sweat so much, I thought I'd have to swim out of that room.
Marty 1:   (growling)  Quit picking on me.
Marty 2:  Well somebody's got to talk some sense into that rock you call a head.
Marty 1:  What do you mean (snarling just a tad).
Marty 2:  (very reasonable voice)  How old were those women at Zumba.
Marty 1:  20, 30, 40 (small voice)
Marty 2:  You idiot - what possessed you to try to keep up with a 20 year old's butt wiggles and rah rah rahs and grapevine kicks and twirls and chainsaws and wiggles and ......
Marty 1:  (screaming) SHUT UP!  I put on my big girl panties and I was determined to stay up with them young uns.
Marty 2:  (dripping sarcasm)  And how did that work out for you?
Marty1:  (ignores the question)
Marty 2:  (louder)  Hey old woman - I said - How did that work out for you?
Marty 1:  (very small voice)  I did OK.
Marty 2:  (so much sarcasm, you are drowning in it)   REALLY!  And did I see you walk out of class to visit the porceline throne with 10 minutes left to go.  What was that all about?
Marty 1:  (very cross and snappy)  Well, o.k. so I got a little hot, sue me.  So I had to visit the porceline throne because of that.  Sue me.
Marty 2:  I rest my case, lady.  Take those big girl panties, toss them in the back of your drawer and act your age.
Marty 1:  (almost whimpering)  But I wanna wear my big girl panties.  I want to ride roller coasters, I want to stay up with the big girls.  I want to do all the things I did when I was 20.
Marty 2:  (huge sigh).  Dear Lord, my work is never done.  Rerun on this conversation tomorrow.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Purple Polka Dotted Snaggle Toothed Sonda

Once upon a time there was a perfect village that was nestled in a beautiful forest of tall pines and green growing things.  Every house was perfect, every yard was a green velvet blanket, every flower bloomed radiant and beautiful in the perfectly manicured gardens. Not a single weed was EVER seen in any yard.

The people of this village were very busy people who bustled around every day - to jobs, to work, to shop and to do whatever people of villages did during the day.  Clocks ticked, cars ran, people ate, people slept in big soft beds that were perfectly made with linens that cost a fortune.

The children of this village all joined together to play through the forest, running and laughing, hiding behind trees, and jumping out to scare each other.  Their cries of happiness and giggles could be heard drifting on the air throughout the village.  Their parents would just nod happily, knowing their children were safe and being cared for by the highest qualified child care expert that money could buy.

 It was a perfect village ..... except for one flaw.  At the edge of the forest, set way apart from the village was an old house made of logs, with a thatched roof that constantly drooped and needed patching.  This small house did not have a blanket of velvet green grass, nor did flowers grow in pretty rows in a flower bed.  Instead, the grass grew willy nilly, here and there, and blankets of flowers grew in every tiny crevice that they could latch onto.  Their colors were spilled out into the forest in blinding colors of the rainbow.  BUT they were not in their proper flower beds, nor were they the expensive flowers that the villagers preferred.  But around this small house, a glow of joy radiated from every corner, bouncing off flowers and grasses.

The tiny house was home to a creature that the villagers preferred to pretend did not exist.  He was the Purple Polka Dotted Snaggle Toothed Sonda.  The parents whispered behind their hands about him, and people kept their distance from "that snaggle toothed creature."  Poor old Sonda was so lonely, even surrounded by the rainbow of flowers and the green grass that grew and climbed over every empty space.  As the children were brought to the forest to play by the highly qualified child expert, he would sadly sit on a rock in the warm sunshine and watch the children giggle and run and leap and play.

He never played, he never talked to them, but he yearned to be part of that free flowing group of screaming happy children.  Many times, he pretended he could play with them, and thought up wonderful games that he could teach them to play.  But with a sigh, he would go back inside his tiny home, when the expert rounded up all the children and took them home in the evening.  As the sun set, Sonda would rock in his chair, dreaming about having friends who loved him and being able to belong to a group such as the children belonged to their group of friends.

ONE DAY - the unthinkable happened to the perfect village.  The highly qualified child expert was promoted to a job in another town, leaving the village without any highly qualified expert to care for their children.  The parents were in a dither, and they met at the edge of the village to discuss this horrible problem.  As the parents shouted over each other, the din became so loud, that Sonda got off his rock and crept closer to where the parents were ranting and raving and arguing.  Listening carefully, he finally understood what had happened.  His heart was just crushed.  Without a highly qualified child expert, the children would no longer come to the forest.  He would no longer be able to listen to them giggle, watch them swing and make up pretend games in his mind to play with them.  His life would turn from a rainbow of color to the gray of a rainy, damp day.

Sonda could stand it no longer, and timidly approached the group of arguing parents.  As the parents became aware of Sonda standing there in all his purple polka dotted snaggled toothed glory, their words died out to a silence where not a sound could be heard.  Sonda, shaking all over, managed to finally get the words out of his mouth that he wanted to say.  He told them that he knew they were very upset because they had no one to care for their children.  He told them that he knew every one of their children by name, what they looked like and what their favorite games were.  He knew which child could swing the highest, which child could find the most beautiful rocks, and which child had the most giggliest giggle. 

The parents' mouths fell open.  No one spoke at all for many minutes, while poor Sonda struggled to figure out what to say next.  Finally, he reached down into his heart and pulled up every ounce of courage he had.  What he proposed to the parents had them backing away and shaking their heads.  He wanted to be the highly qualified child expert that would watch their children for them.  After all, as he said, he loved them all.  He knew what they liked to do.  He knew which children needed to take a rest every so often so they would not be sick.  He knew which children like peanut butter sandwiches and which children hid their vegetables so their parents never knew they hadn't eaten them.  He would watch them.  He would finally get to play those games with them that he had planned in his mind so carefully for so long a time.

No parent would say yes, no one would even meet Sonda's eyes until a tiny child who had been watching from the edge of the forest, walked quietly to Sonda's side.  The tiny little girl looked up at Sonda, took his hand and said, "I will play with you."  Another child joined her, and took his other hand and smiled up at Sonda's snaggled toothed face.  Sonda thought his heart would burst with joy.  Would they let him?  Little by little, all the children gathered around Sonda, holding onto his arms, or his legs or just sitting by his feet.  They clearly had made their choice.  But would the parents agree?

Sonda realized he had been holding his breath.  Should he beg?  Should he plead?  Or should he just go back to being the lonely creature, sitting on a rock and longing to be part of all the fun.  After all, he WAS different, so maybe he didn't belong at all.

One parent finally came forward, gazed at Sonda for a bit, and then looked at the beaming children gathered around Sonda.  He announced to the parents that he had made his decision.  If his children loved Sonda, and would play with him, that was a good enough recommendation for a highly qualified child expert for him!  Other parents echoed his thoughts and slowly came forward to join the group around Sonda.  When the children realized that Sonda would now be their highly qualified child expert, they let out a cheer that made the birds fly squawking into the air.  Sonda's heart was filled to overflowing. He would no longer be lonely.  He could play.  He did not have to sit on a rock any longer because he was different.  His life was now just as beautiful as the riotous flowers blooming all around his house.  He belonged.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Light is ...

... the soft glow of warm kitchen light that seeps around the edges of the blind, as you pull into your driveway after a long day of work.

.... the shadows that dance on the wall from the tiny nightlight as you rock a new baby in your arms.

..... the clear white beam from a headlight that silhouettes a doe and her baby, grazing beside the road.

....  the split second forks of lightening that shoot through the sky as the thunder rumbles and the rain sweeps across the sidewalk.

...  the joy in a child's eyes as they run toward toward you, to be swept into the air and into a warm hug.

.... the flicker of soft candles that light the altar of a great Cathedral, as men and women kneel in quiet prayer.

.....   the brightness in all the rooms of a home that is filled with bustling, happy people, visiting, eating and laughing.

....  the dazzling beauty of the sun glistening on brand new snow, without a mark upon it's soft white surface.

....  the small, warm beam of a flashlight as you and your child walk hand in hand in the dusk, listening for owls and watching fireflies blink.

....  the reds, golds, blues, greens and purples of fireworks,  exploding in the summer night, lighting the night sky as we celebrate freedom.

.....  the tiny, dim glow that grows to epic proportions as your heart falls in love for the very first time.

....  the snapping flames of a crackling bonefire that sends light on roasting sticks, hot dogs, marshmallows and children biting into Smores with chocolate smeared on their faces.

.... is loving someone until the time comes for them to walk into the light of heaven, and into God's arms.

Let the light of happiness, freedom and love guide your steps into this new, wonderful year of 2012.